***Some real stuff below alert***
-when I am alone with my thoughts I have very few regrets. I've built/lost businesses. I've had too much "fun" and had to have stopped having too much "fun"... yada yada yada. That stuff is part of a life thoroughly lived. What creeps in and hits me in the gut are thoughts of kids/people on the margins that I may have ignored/dismissed as a youth/young adult. Was never mean to that type of person...but I remember a few opportunities/folks that I could've been actively kind to and made them feel a little less "other" but didn't...and that bugs me.
I can relate. But the way I have reconciled it in my mind is that you're taking the knowledge / consciousness you have as an adult and trying to apply it to your younger years - and that does not work. You were young and dumb, as we all were, so cut yourself a break. It's part of growing up. All you can do is take that knowledge and do better going forward, and I'm confident that you've done that.
Enough of that, anybody want to fight this week?